Yeah i just posted a minute ago on my space and i read another one of my posts, the one right before i posted and i suddenly felt in the mood to right. I did sign up for the retreat.don't ask me why.i pretty much feel like i'm paying 40 bucks to do powerpoint... oh i'm sorry..... easy worship....welll presentation... anyways you know... yeah. i don't know like isaid part of me is still wanting to be allup i nthe God thing part of people is kinda liek geez let is go don't bother.... i'm pretty much at war. i don't know who's winning. maybe something amazing will happen... hell, i said that about the last retreat, and nothing happened. i don't know i want something to happen. a really good message where i can just have that switch flicked on to get me gung ho again.
I went to c&c tonight and i think thats why i'm so at war. I mean i didn't give a crap about the lyrics of the songs, but the songs themselves were fun to sing. i mean you can't help but have a grand time while singing meet me inthe river..it's just not possible to not jump and dance around. who knows. like i said i'm very divided. bah
i need help. but the people i should be talking to about it...well there's no wayin hell i will. not that i don't want too....but i can't but i can... agh frustrated much? i sure as hell am. well i'm bored and ready for bed.
imust get up early tomorrow for work....anyways night
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