yup

shoppping
so tomorrow i'm going shopping with allison, super excited, i haven't gone shopping with her in so long.
Today i went to mcdonalds and visited becky at work and enjoyed a nice hamburger happy meal. Some little girls form the near by junior high llaughed at me for buying a happy meal, and i laughed at them cus they think i cared. besides i got a freaking toy, so screw them.

Things are certainly strange right now. I've had some comments made towards me that i did not appreciate AT ALL. and that was an experience that's forsure. I'm currently going out of my mind right now. i'm not sure what i believe in. as i've said a million times. I'm pretty much split. tonight at youth i sand the worship until the point where we sang my redeemer lives. I just couldn't sing the words " i know he's rescued my soul, his blood has covered my sin i believe.... i believe" i just couldn't bring myself to do it and i just started getting more and more confused.and the words pointed out to me hoow confused i am really. I don't like talking about things either especially when i feel like i can't talk to that person. yet i am going to talk to them, and i doubt it will do a damn thing.
well i think i'm officially screwed in the head. hur freaking rah