Schooooool is done

So the last week was absolute crap!
So we did our presentation on monday, it sucked. one of the members of our group sat there and spoke in this none enthusiastic voice. Then when the teacherwent to talk to us about it she stormed out of the room and screamed the f bomb and punched the wall. It was pretty ridiculous!!!! Then we didn't talk to that person for pretty much the whole week.
Then pretty much everyone else in our class is being a biz too so it was so just a grumpy vibe all the way.
Although i had 4 tests, 1 thursday and 3 on friday, and i'm pretty sure i did well on all of them. which is pretty exciting.

thats pretty much is
we'll see how christmas goes

i don't care..and i feel so refereshed

well yesterday was a downfall for me. i felt like pooh! good news i feel way better now.
After the church service, even though the topic had nothing to do with stuff that i was feeling bumbed about, i felt very relieved and peaceful! I know that God will take care of this thing with nick and when he does I will be very thankful for whatever his plan is.
Plus my laptop is working! yahoo!! thank you Jesus! there's no way i could afford to fix it if it didn't work.
I'm still praying for that job so here's my prayer for today.

Dear God,
Thank you sooo soo so much for all the blessings you have given me, Lord God, and I think you that you're a part of my life. God, I just pray that you help me with the things I'm still struggling with, swearing, using you name in vain, gossiping, lying, and so much more Lord, I pray for your forgiveness in that area and I pray that you give me the strength to turn away. Lord, I also pray that you help with love others. I'm so terrible and showing love towards people when I first meet people... I often dislike people until they give me a reason to like them Lord, and I don't want it to be like that. God, I want to love them at first chance, God.
God I just pray now as well for this situation at the school, Lord, I just want that job so much, and God, they've made it clear that they want me there too. God, I just pray that it doesn't change and that they don't go back on what they said, and they my hopes aren't shot down, Lord. Please, God, just place me in that school permanently.
God I want to lift up the church. Lord, as we just elected new elders I pray that they seek you and that you steer the church through them Lord, and that we as a congregation can encourage and support them. Lord, I just pray you be with them in all their decisions.
God, I pray for Josh, Kiel, Erin and Mel as they travel home Lord God. I pray that you protect them and keep them safe on their road Lord God. And that you just continue to be in the hearts and minds as they return home to share new and exiting things with our youth, Lord, I pray for the youth. God I pray for you just to reveal yourself in huge ways Lord. Lord open these youth's eyes to you like they've never seen before Lord God. And Lord just open their hearts so they they can be closer to you God. God I just thank you so much again for the blessings that you've given Lord. You have given so much Lord. And as you continue to show yourself God, I just pray that I don't get caught up with pointless things God and that I am able to stay thankful and continue to praise and worship you for your Goodness and love.
Amen

why is it?

tell me why is it that you can be on the highest mountain one minute and on the deepest valley the next? it's really bazarre.
For instance, my mountain:
I was so thrilled and estatic to find out there is a very large possiblity that I'll be able to work at the school I'm doing practicum at because it seems that they really like me and the resource teacher pretty much flat out told me that she wants me there next year to take the place of a girl that's going to be going to grad school next year. So that was extremely joyful.
Now my valley:
after everything seemed fine, me and my friend are finally on the outs completely after their pyscho girl friend lied and said I did something I didn't do. So now I'm blocked and she's got full control!
Now only that but I feel like total crap and a useless lump whenever I go to youth now. I don't feel like I make any sort of difference there anymore. AND to top it all off my Laptop is completely bunking out!
and yet i feel terrible cus I feel like I'm only focussing in on the bad stuff!
lets go back to my mountain!
I'm extremely thankful for the blessing I've been giving to have the opportunity to work at this school and for the fact that i've heard that they want to keep me!
I'm just praying that i don't have my hopes suddenly snubbed down... I will be heart broken!
Who knows what this week will bring. I'm praying that I don't have a mental breakdown!