Well so many things are going on right now in my life and I really just have to slow down and think things over. This summer I'm officially going to be councelling at camps with meaning. I don't know what my schedual is going to be but this is the most pumped I have been since the missions trip last year. It took me a really long time to even decide if I wanted to do it this year. I prayed about it for a while and discovered it was the right thing to do. Last year I was not called to it what-so-ever. Funny how things change.
I've been missing last year though, how certain things were. It really bothers me how much things can change and not always for the best. Things have changed with my friendships with people. Take for instance my friendship with someone from youth. We bonded a lot on the spiritual retreat, but after certain events that occured on Friday, I cannot even look her in the eye. It really bothers me that much.
Also last year on the ski trip I began to become close to certain people. There were 6 of us in the van for that trip, one of which was my youth pastor. At that time I was very content with my friendship with him. He talked to me and actually acted like he wanted to be my friend. As of late, however, I am very annoyed with his attitude and am very ashamed of his efforts as a role model. I do not believe that he will do anything about the events on friday night because he himself has done the same thing, if he were to infact comment on the matter of how its wrong, he would become a hiprocrate. He can be friends with the others I guess, because he has made it obvious that he is not mine. He constantly talks about how he would love to hang out with us at lunch and we should just ask him, I've asked him 3 times and still no lunch. It is for that and many other reasons that this summer I'm going to have a long long thought and prayer process about whether or not I should return to that youth group. I am annoyed and discouraged.
In the meantime though, I will not think about it too much. In less than two weeks 34 of the youth group are heading down to edmonton for the biggest youth conference in Canada. YC05... www.ycgeneration.com I am probably the most excited for this than I have been for anything my whole life. And I cannot wait for the trip. Its going to be amazing.
Work has been going pretty well I think. Because of the success I'm almost leaning towards something in the veteranarian field. But I still want to help people so I really feel like I should have a big long thought process and prayer time about that. We got some very adorable puppies in that remind me of kirby when he was a young one. They're little yorkies and I wish I could just steel them all.
School is going well. we're getting close. only just over a month to go... I want it to be over so badly...
Anways as I have mentioned I have a lot on my plate currently and I could use some encouragement even though I don't expect it from anyone. we'll just see how things transcend, shall we?
Lauren
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