Letting Go

I'm horrible at letting go. I mean I know peope come and go. Unfortunetly thats the way it goes, people enter and leave your life all the time, I know that, but with some people some things, I keep going back to them, and it's making it better hard for me to let go of those memories and those people. This year I want to be different, I want this year to be the best year of all the years of school, because it is pretty much my last. Such I go to college, but that is completely different. The security of who I'll eat lunch with everyday, who I'll hang out with, it's gone. And it's weird. It doesn't really scare me, it's just weird.

Then I think of the years after college. Where I'm on my own. It's so weird to think of me having my won place, just being on my own in general. More weirdness to add to the pile. I've been doing lots of thinking lately. Like me and some people had this really good conversation saturday night at staff stay over. About being the same person out of camp as you are at camp. And I think I have to start trying a lot harder at being good outside of camp. I think I need to start thinking of everything and whether or not it is NCA whether it's at camp or not at camp.

Anyways that was my long babble for tonight.