It's been a long time... shouldn't have left you, without a dope blog to step to..

Well campers, it's been over a year since I've last took time to sit down and write in the thing that the internet literate call the blog. Since then so much has happened in my life I can't even begin to write it all. But I think I will try.
In the summer of 2006 I felt a calling back to Albright church and the explicit truth student ministries. They welcomed me back as a SPit. I then began to slowly gain my relationship with my God back.
I took the 2006-07 school year off and worked at Petland full time as head kennel tech and it worked out well until about February until I decided that the class window in kennel four had to die. I then kicked it in and tried to quit my job while my boss was out of town. When she came back she decided to ask me to stay as the stock manager and I did take it and worked there again full time. Until about June, when i quit and took a job with Telus mobility to sell cell phones...that lasted all of three days and I was then unemployed. Luckily I was then offered a job at Petland Main street.......that didn't exactly work out well as I quit there by the beginning of August... which I then begged for my job at crossroads back. I am currently working there on weekends while I go to school...
There is another big change that I never saw coming. After a puppy at work had a large cut on his leg and I had to witness surgery and stitching on that leg..I realized that I had a very week stomach for the sight and smell of a bleeding wound. Upon that realization another hit.... I definitely should not be a nurse. I decided to drop out of the Joint Baccalaureate Nursing program at Red River College. So what then to do.. I truly had no idea.. in rolls Becky to save the day and tell me that she's taking the Para-Education Program at Red River....why not I'll give er a try...best decision I have ever made...not only do I get to hang out with my two friends, Becky and Andrea, every day, but I am also truly enjoying the program and all it had brought my so far; including several opportunities to share my faith with other people. I have never done as well in school as I am right now.
I am also a sponsor once again this year at youth. Once again I am truly enjoying it. Not only do I get to spend my Wednesday and Friday nights with the most amazing youth in the entire world, and work with the most amazing team of leaders in the entire world, but I am also so very thankful that I'm building my faith up more and more everyday.
One October 19-21 we had our yearly fall retreat at echo lake bible camp. On the way back, while about 10 minutes out side of Brandon, three of our seven cars got into a a fairly serious accident, which resulted in seven of our youth going to the hospital. However, non of the injuries were serious and all were able to go home that night. Looking at the cars though, I can honestly say that if you weren't aware of what took place, you would think someone had died. I am very thankful to God that no one was injured and for all the several blessings that have come out of it. For the first time of my five years at the youth group, we don't have the problem we always had with cliques. Everyone just loves and accepts everyone now, the way it should have been. Students are diving deeper and deeper into their faith. We have students who are picking up their bibles to read it for the first time in long time if not the first time in general, and we have students who are interested in being baptized! It is very exciting to be apart of the church right now and I can see God working in big ways and I can see him continuing to do big things in the future!
However after a somewhat discouraging night on Friday, I find myself asking myself whether or not I actually make a difference in these kid's lives and I have wondered for the last five days whether or not I should continue in this ministry. I love the youth there with all m heart, but to be completely honest I feel very discouraged.

So I beg of my God, light my fire up and help me feel encouraged, whether it be through encouragement through friends or whether you help me realize some how that I am needed and I am being used. God, help me to be a positive role model for these kids and turn away from the things that I keep falling into. Help me keep my sadness under control, God, I can only do this through you.

Now I must go to sleep or else I may pass out. The next few weeks are going to be tiring and strenuous on my body and I'm praying that I am able to get through it with no/as little grumpiness as possible.