Tonight was interesting, I was feeling rather bitchy not in the grumpy agree way in the way of i'm feeling really emotional and like i could cry. I really didn't like the idea of singing some mighty praise to God when I don't even really feel like he's here. So then after practicing for five minutes erin stops everyone and tells me i shouldn't sing that certain part because I sound off.
Okay wrong timing... so we continued to sing and I just couldn't do it. I just put the microphone down and walked out.went to the washroom and stayed there for awhle. Then when i came back erin demanded i talk to her.. i just kept up my " it's nothing" attitude and told her thats what it was, cus really thats what it was.. nothing to do with her. I just figured that if i'm not exactly right with God I probably shouldn't be helping lead people in worshipping him. so needless to say.. i didn't sing ...that's all.
So anyways I really don't know. I'm sick of people and if she thinks i'm pissed I really don'tcare to fix it. I'm really sick of people thinking that things center around them. I already didn't want to sing, and yes that did push me over. But i didn't want to anyways you know.
I don't know I guess I really just don't know anymore. And i care but i don't.erg this whole situation is really stupid. weeeee
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